This is just another writing practice. Nothing to see here.
And ya know what?
I’m not even going to correct it. I just want to make sure that I can really go to town behind this keyboard wwhen people start making demands on me.
I know, it sounds arrogant, but i’m feeling confident.
Today is the first day of the rest of your life and all that.
That was a few months ago. Or were it years?
I am always making these big self improvements, but i’m still not where I want to be. I want to be able to sit here and do all of this interesting bulkl malarkey and still get paid for it.
I have always heard that if you do what you love, you will never work another day in your life. Well.. I’m trying my best to achieve what seems like an impossible goal.
Is this leading me down a path of destruction?
I can predict the future with some accuracy and I see hitchinking and not showering in my future.
The future is scary. Any little decision that I make can alter it for the better or the worse.
If anyone is reading this, I just want to let you know that I am writing a book.
No, I can’t set you see it though. It is pretty disturbing. It scares me that those thoughts come out of me.
But enough of that, did you know that Charles Bukowski said that if your mother begins to like your work, your are getting worse.
That is why I am not sharing. I rely on the kindness of people who dont know me as well as I do.
Yeah. i’m predictable. so what. I do the right thing everytime, until no one is watching, then I shit on the floor. Figuratively.
So Now what?
Do I just keep on trucking with what i’m doing?
Shiiiii, I dunno.
What is the right path to take?
Left, right, fortissimo, piano, guitar, midi, WAR?
What. Come on fingers, tell me the answer. I will be marking you with ink soon enough.
Seriously though, who wakes up in the middle of the night and writes a paper about how to make their own sterile tattoo ink.
Am I loosing it?
Is this what insanity looks like.
This is too revealing.
So il;l; just conclude that I have been insanne since iv’e been 12.
Thanks for letting me heat up my fingers here.
P.S. Listen to: Massive Attack – Mezzanine – 1998